i swear, i've got to be the only idiot that watches so you think you can dance and ends up this bawling mess. oh god. to get routines like that, to dance like that, to dance on a stage like that. fuck i would kill for it. and the funny thing really is that the ones that i really want, are always the lyrical, contemporary routines. i love the emoting quality of contemporary dance, the raw, stripped quality put out there. somehow i've grown rather distant from the 'performance' quality of ballroom, especially latin, with the full on sensuality. shrugs. perhaps i'm at a different stage now i suppose.
i realise that the past two years have been a solo journey. something which i didn't really think about much till recently. since secondary sch, its always been a group journey, be it with screw, or the trampers. and then with the dancers in rj. but now, its just me, plain and simple. perhaps its the lifestyle i've adopted, a temporary flitting lifestyle where i'm never in a single place for too long. so it becomes this one person story, with guest appearances i suppose.
but i must say.. i really quite like it. it makes life simple, drama-less, happy and moves in the exact way i want it too. but at the same time still, i miss those dance practices, the gym trainings, the kboxing, the nonsense shit in the classroom and special moments.
i mentioned to angie once, if i had to choose between traveling and marriage, which would i choose, i really wouldn't know. i honestly honestly wouldn't know. and i've yet to consider whether that actually scares me. hmms.
happy birthday jie. i love you.
[edit] mms. this feels like digging up very old things, haha. but i just have to say it. i never realised how lucky we were in rj, for the support we got for the dancers and dance club was always beyond amazing. when you look at western schools, its always the singers and cheerleaders and athletes that get all that support, and dancers kinda fade off somewhere. and yet in rj, the support always was awesome. the time it took to sell out amarante for example (: hahaha, the dancers were so gleeful that day. they were wonderful times. sighs. i esp miss you spinkie ):[/edit]
i realise that the past two years have been a solo journey. something which i didn't really think about much till recently. since secondary sch, its always been a group journey, be it with screw, or the trampers. and then with the dancers in rj. but now, its just me, plain and simple. perhaps its the lifestyle i've adopted, a temporary flitting lifestyle where i'm never in a single place for too long. so it becomes this one person story, with guest appearances i suppose.
but i must say.. i really quite like it. it makes life simple, drama-less, happy and moves in the exact way i want it too. but at the same time still, i miss those dance practices, the gym trainings, the kboxing, the nonsense shit in the classroom and special moments.
i mentioned to angie once, if i had to choose between traveling and marriage, which would i choose, i really wouldn't know. i honestly honestly wouldn't know. and i've yet to consider whether that actually scares me. hmms.
happy birthday jie. i love you.
[edit] mms. this feels like digging up very old things, haha. but i just have to say it. i never realised how lucky we were in rj, for the support we got for the dancers and dance club was always beyond amazing. when you look at western schools, its always the singers and cheerleaders and athletes that get all that support, and dancers kinda fade off somewhere. and yet in rj, the support always was awesome. the time it took to sell out amarante for example (: hahaha, the dancers were so gleeful that day. they were wonderful times. sighs. i esp miss you spinkie ):[/edit]
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